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Saturday, October 2, 2010

Thoughts

"The bravest are surely those who have the clearest vision of what is before them,
glory and danger alike, yet notwithstanding, go out to meet it." ~Thucydides




This week I have been almost fanatic with checking up on blogs and facebook checking for updates and comments on Mark. I have cried and cried everyday since he has passed. It still breaks my heart even though I know that Mark truly felt like this was his mission on this earth, to take out the bad guys and he was able to even while being shot at. His heroism overwhelms me. His love for his country, his selfless service and the service he gave in honor of our Heavenly Father, overwhelms me. I can only hope that I can live MY life like Mark. Truly aware of my purpose and ready to face whatever comes.

It breaks my heart that I won't be able to attend his memorial services. They are in Haleyville, AL, about a 5-6 hr drive from here. I can't see any way my Doctor will let me forgo bed rest for a day to drive down there. I would, I will ask but I doubt that he will let me make that trip. This spring when we head down there, I do want to stop to pay tribute to a hero of mine.





Below are some quotes I found on a Military post his brother Thad linked to.

“Lest I keep my complacent way I must remember somewhere out there a person died for me today. As long as there must be war, I ask and I must answer was I worth dying for?”
Eleanor Roosevelt


When tomorrow starts without me, And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes, All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry, The way you did today;
While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me, As much as I love you;
And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand.

She said my place was ready, In heaven far above;
And that I'd have to leave behind, All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye;
For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for, So much yet to do;
It seemed almost impossible, That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad;
I thought of all the love we shared, And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday, Just even for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you, And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized, That this could never be;
For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow;
I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home;
When God looked down and smiled at me, From His great golden throne.

He said, "This is eternity, And all I've promised you;
Today your life on earth is past, But here it all starts anew."
"I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last;
And since each day's the same day, There's no longing for the past."
"But you have been so faithful, So trusting and so true;
Though at times you did do things, You knew you shouldn't do."
"But you have been forgiven, And now at last you're free;
So won't you take my hand, And share my life with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me, Don't think we're far apart
For every time you think of me, I'm right here in your heart.




We love you Mark

3 comments:

Thanaglim said...

Great tribute to him. I love the poem at the end.

~ kietra ~ said...

Beautiful words, Tracy. I am sorry for the loss of your friend. I am also very grateful for the courageous men and women that fight for our freedoms.

Jeni said...

Tracy, that first quote was awesome. I hadn't seen that one yet. I think you and I have been equally consumed by Mark's death. The goal now is to be better because of it. Love you, and I'm sooo thankful our prayers have been heard and you are carrying this baby as far as you have!!! Continued prayers for a healthy delivery! I love you!