Sunday, Sunday

We had an amazing Sunday today. There is a missionary leaving from our ward this week so he and his mom spoke. Now I have always looked up to this amazing lady, she was an advisor with me in YW and is now the Pres, so thankfully I've had occasion to get to know her better and she is wonderful. There talks were so poignant and right on track, if a little harsh which is how I love them! The missionary's talk was great also, he's going to do great out in California.
Our Sunday school teacher is just so in tune with the Spirit and I am grateful for all the work and preparation he puts into his lessons.
YW, well it almost made me cry. After lunch, a fabulous nap and Isabel crawling all over me I went to a stake meeting for YW/YM Duty to God and Personal Progress. I am very excited for my new calling. Oh and I was set apart today in blessing that gives me such hope and such potential.
Mike and I ended the night playing 7 games of Skip-Bo. Next week we have friends coming over for waffle/pancake dinner. I can't wait.
I hope all of you had a wonderful Sabboth day this week and you were energized and renewed for this upcoming week.
Love ya!

Grief is so funny sometimes...

It sneeks up on you when you least expect it. Yesterday we were going to the cannery to get food storage and while I'm driving in my truck and deciding that nope, I'm just not hungry enough to eat my PB&J sandwich thoughts of my daughter came rushing into my head. On the way home it was the same thing. So here I am, leaving the cannery after having a great time, I have 10 boxes of cans in my car for my friend and I, feeling pretty good about getting prepared and suddenly the tears started rolling. At one point I was almost laughing on how the grief can just up on you like that. On the other hand my mind was racing on certain memories I have of the NICU and so I couldn't. I know I'll have more days, and that these moments are cleansing but it would be nice to have a bit more warning. Of course maybe not, I have had more days like this in the last few weeks then the whole month of Nov. I have a friend who's sister died last year I think about this time or around Dec 2 years ago and I had a hard time sympathizing with her months and months later when she'd still have darker days and now I'm starting to catch a small glimpse of those moments, you really can't control them and often you don't want to, it's nice to have a reminder of good days with family.

Personal Progress

Hello my fellow Mormons.. for all you lifers out there who when thru the personal progress program, if you have any ideas on how to make it interesting and get the girls 'excited' to do it please let me know as I have been called to be the personal progress leader.
Thanks!

I asked for it

Let me first say that I love being a mom. Then let me follow it up by saying not so much lately. My daughter is giving payback for what she wasn't even around to see started. Ok, so let me start at the beginning. I was a very 'independent' child, some might say I was talkative, I prefer loquacious. My family had these cute nicknames for me, motormouth and transmission. I enjoyed conversations, especially when I was the one talking, and ALL eyes were focused on me. I was a great child. That's it. OH, well except for one sticky lil' point of me and my temper tantrums. I was amazing, I could have all eyes focused on my mom making people think she was an awful parent, store managers would approach her and ask her to come back later when I wasn't with her. Apparently I had a knack for disrupting shoppers, I guess that's a problem.

Why all this background? Well, my cute lil' 'angelic' daughter, she doesn't have an off switch. She comes out all happy from her naps saying "momma I awake!" I get excited and then the fake whining, the defiance of orders (really I do ask politely), the begging for nothing but snacks that she knows I won't give her if she didn't eat her food. However despite my best efforts to keep her from eating the junk, she has learned to bring her stool from wherever it is in the house into the pantry and reaches for the animal crackers (really why do they not just call them the cookies, we all now that's pretty much what they are?) or her fruit snacks and will eat them in hiding. Today was a particularly frustrating day, well really I was tired it's the third day in a row, she gets told no do not do it and she looks at me as if she doesn't here me, and does it. This is usually followed by more fake whining and my new favorite 'I want my daddy" (this cry is reversed if Mike is disciplining her). So I guess It's safe to say that the child I have created who can unlock doors, wake up in 30 minute intervals starting at 5:30 am like clockwork, fake tantrums, selective listening, and extreme hyper-activeness.. oh yea and she DOESN"T STOP TALKING!

I would like to take this time to give a shout out to my husband for taking my daughter away from me so I could breathe and relax. Now I might be ok with being a mom again tomorrow.

Thankfully my mom doesn't read this, she may not ever stop laughing... of course my sister won't be any better.

In hopes of a good laugh

My friend Laura had this on her blog and in light of this past weekend, we the Bama nation are in need of a laugh or two, so thanks Laura!

Instructions:Go to Google (or whichever search engine you prefer) and type in your first name and the phrase. Copy and paste the first sentence/phrase you get that makes sense. You can get some pretty wacky stuff. Tag as many people as you like. Make sure you tag the person who tagged you.

Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search
A: Tracy needs win to get back in to title battle

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search
A: Tracy looks like a weasel

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search.
A: Tracy says he's got Oprah open like a monkey

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search
A: Tracy wants her own

Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search
A: Tracy does Conan quotes

Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search
A: Tracy hates Seth

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search
A: Tracy asks "what's the last self help book you've read?"

Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search
A: (Dick) Tracy goes digital

Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search.
A: Tracy likes Chad

Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search
A: Tracy eats local

Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search
A: Tracy, she a bride, she beautiful (I'm a mattel barbie now!)

Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search
A: Tracy arrested after falling asleep and snoring

I tag anyone who wants to play!

and so it begins

Welcome to 2009 the first crappy day. My family will be in all black tomorrow.


By the way for the Bama faithful, somebody Cody Blowers knows, well he and I were just exchanging words... he said and I quote..."only maggots should live off a dead bear this long"... Cody, I do not see this as any reflexion on you...

the audacity of some people.

We survived!

I looked at Mike this morning at 2am after all of our guests left and threw my hands up and exclaimed "we survived 08!!!"
This past year has been ridiculous for us. We had business end, business start, relationships obliterated, another pregnancy that ended to soon and unfortunately a life that did also, a long road trip with too many blow outs, a daughter who almost drowned twice in one day, and STRESS, STRESS and more STRESS. I can truly say it's been the hardest year of my life but I think I had more growth and more testimony building events then I could have asked for (or wanted!) But it all happens for a reason. We have grown and stretched and yes it's been uncomfortable but what 'workout' isn't. So after all the years in college have passed, my song is still, and maybe always will be I will survive.
Here to another year full of growth, but hopefully not so painful the entire time!